Today, i am so glad that i went to church... this week.. coz maybe i was home for quite a few days.. i tend to get a little emo and upset about many things as i den have time to sit back and think through my life up till date. Getting to know what has really happened over the months where i was so busy with work... was great..... i kinda realised that we are all human in flesh and without Christ we are all nothing but a pile of ash.... and we ought to be thankful to daddy God who guides us and leads us.. never fails to brighten and lighten up my day.... he is my refuge and my most loyal friend...... he understands me the best, even to the extend of knowing how many strands of hair i have on my head..... so lord... thank u for renewing my heart. though i was a little emo.. but going to church and listening to your word...really is my source of rejuvenation.

 I love it when Pastor mentioned about God being the last and most important man in our life..... he is the only one who can heal that broken hearted....and... give us peace and rest.... i really believe so.....

Many times... though i really try hard not to think back on my past... but somehow these flashbacks still keep haunting me. Each and every time that happens... i start to feel very empty and lost...  sad... but im trusting the lord to take all of that away and heal my broken heart.... though.... my dearest boy has really been quite a gd bf up till date.... always giving me attention n all... i really love him deeply... but somehow... i just need time to heal that wound of mine.. its no longer bleeding... but sometimes... infection just attacks me and im using God as my detol and antiseptic cream to heal that wound.... i trust that the day where im totally set free from all condemnation and heart ache... will come soon and i can den rejoice and  be glad for that healing! amen.


P.s.  I really wan to tell u..... thank you for loving me... im glad that I've chosen u coz.. up till date... i think i've made the right choice... though sometimes i can be very irritating and get emo and stuff.. but please don't give up on me because other than daddy God being my pillar of strength.... now... you have also become one of my pillar of strength.. i love u and im thankful that the Lord has brought u to me....